finally feeling some old feelings again...

...or in other words, my faith in my craziness has been renewed. yesterday and today i have begun to feel a lot like my "old" self. you know, the crazy, outgoing, vivacious kind of guy. the guy that was entertaining, fun, and the life of the party without even trying. yeah, that guy.

  all i can say is world watch out because i'm on a mission. sure, i know it sounds kind of crazy, but that's the point. i'm returning to my old self and enjoying it thoroughly. then again, i dont have much else, and maybe that has something to do with it all. i've finally reduced some of my stress levels to zero, which is in turn enabling my brain to perform at a more functional level. crazy thoughts and ideas are suddenly flowing through me again, something which i had missed dearly for far too long.

  in any case, most of it is not worth mentioning because it's too vulgar, but perhaps i'll work it out a little more in my head before i share it. you'll see, i think it'll be worth it. it's something racy and fun, a throwback to old times when peopl were really people, not these docile type human beings.

  anyway, i have to go to bed, i have a long day ahead of me tomorrow. it's a busy day, i'm supposed to be getting my guard card tomorrow, and then i can hopefully have a job in 2 weeks. we'll see, the promise of it all is greater than the present reality.

edwin